
A reminder to myself, tomorrow or next time I need something to remind me of whom I really am. Because, sometimes, the humanity in me, even just the drop that’s left in there somewhere, feels the need to connect or attach. There is no point in making up stories, I never had it hard, I just tend to always create the worst situations myself, and every year of my life has added to an amount of mistakes. I analyze people around me to learn how it is like to be normal. I can’t feel it, I can only act it.
Thank God I’m pretty, but no one has ever stepped behind that and I can’t tell someone a secret, because I believe that no one is able to really listen. I am cold towards any human being and almost all the people I love the most are already dead, which reminds me always how getting close to someone could be dangerous for my well being. I am never happy, nor I think I ever was or will be. It is probably because I think too much, thoughts pretty much ruin every moment. I don’t know…
A reminder on the edge of a bridge, the sky, the river and me: to feel forever like the morning of the first day I arrived here unattached. I always feel the need of change. I can’t ever let you catch me, you will never set me free. So I run away, to the new and unknown.

BLA: I was planning to write more lately, only when I tried to do so, I managed to forget my password. But everything is recovered now and I will post more often than once a year:)